Revelations.....Dave Ramsey is my hero! Maybe it is just time for a change! On our way to Gatlinburg last week I somehow started listening to Dave Ramsey and I couldn't turn him off. I rarely listen to the radio, so maybe this was meant to be. The urge to follow his guidance was and is overwhelming.
Daniel and I are on the same page of paying off some debts and saving some money, so that it might be possible for me to stay at home with Addie and be more flexible to be at functions for Avery.
So, in the last three days we have started a budget, relieved our friend/housekeeper of her duties, cancelled my Melealuca Subscription, reduced my cell phone bill by 100 dollars per month, and tried to find people who will help support our goals.
I have read that having a support system in place is extremely important. I am somewhat excited and I feel almost liberated instead of stifled by the axes that are falling on my pleasures in life. Notice the above mentioned cuts to our budget are all "me" related.
One of my goals if our ultimate goal comes to fruition will be to continue to be productive and successful for our family and for my well being. So, I have been soul searching trying to figure out how I can add to our income. I love to write.....I have always wanted to be a journalist (why I didn't do that as a career I will never know......)
I am obviously not very dedicated to this blog, but in celebration of our liberation I will be posting at least twice a week. I hope that after three months of doing this I will be eligible to apply with Blogher. Ultimately this will allow me to write for the public and possible earn a little money. I also hope to document the life of my family in a more timely and dedicated manner.
I hope that you will follow us as we embark on this journey. Change is always scary, but hopefully this change will be fruitful for our family!
Here is a list of goals I/we hope to accomplish.....July 11, 2012 so here are 11 goals on the 11th
1. Save a pile of money and live on one and partial of one income!
2. Reduce our grocery and eating out budget (so far so good) I would like to document that this endeavor did not start out easily, because our power was off for too long and we lost everything in our fridge and freezer!! I guess it a fresh start!
3. Can and save foods in the next few months as garden produce is fresh and available. I thought our tomatoes were done form but after this rain they actually look good!
4. Develop my writing skills.
5. Be more dedicated to my blog and documentation of the joyous children in my life.
6. Get back in the saddle! I really want to get back in the horse industry. This was my passion, it will be good for Avery, and I need to do something for myself. I also hope that this might lead to some income for my family(I know I know this does not sound logical, because in the words of pinterest....."horse people spend thousands of dollars for a 98 cent ribbon"
7. Bake bread from my mamaw's bread starter, and not let the starter go bad!
8. Eat cleaner - meaning less processed foods.
9. Become more organized, obviously this list of goals could be more organized......its a start!
10. Increase my love and work for God and the church.....
11. Be a more attentive mother and wife.......
Showing posts with label Grease. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Grease. Show all posts
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
About The Title….
Grease ….
I can hear my Dad telling me to “use a little elbow grease” when I was first learning to brush my first horse (Sunset Lucky Joe).
I learned about elbow grease from my Mom who taught me to do things right (specifically class projects)
I learned about tractor grease from my husband……
Greasy little boys….hopefully there will be more in my future……
Grease has a multitude of meanings in my life. I have learned to appreciate it. Sometimes grease brings welcomed situations and at other times it makes situations very slippery. Grease has helped me to understand that there are just some things that you cannot control. Grease represents, hard work, letting love flow the way it is most beneficial to my family and me, and letting go when things don’t go the way I had planned…..
Grief….
I wish I did not know this one…..but we all will know it in one way or another, sooner or later. My grief as a bereaved mother has redefined my life. It is not what I would have chosen. If I could change the outcome somehow I would in a heartbeat. If there was something that I could go back in time and change I would. However, I have never and will never regret having Denton for those eleven weeks on earth. I will always feel that having Denton with us was the most precious eleven weeks of my life. Obviously, we don’t see the beautiful tapestry that god is creating for us in heaven, and we will never fully understand why horrible tragedies happen on earth. We only see the backside of the picture and become confused by the things that we don’t have answers to. Don’t think that as I write this I have figured out the “whys”, I am still searching……But I have to believe that God is in control. I question God on a daily basis. I am still very angry that God let Denton die, but I am beginning to accept the fact that God sees the bigger picture. I am reminded of the Helen Keller quote…..
“We could never learn to be brave and patient if there were only joy in the world.”
Through my grief I have found that I have several choices. I can choose not to live, either literally or emotionally. Neither of which is an option….because of my precious Avery. I also have to make it for Denton. Option number three is to find some sort of happiness or satisfaction in each day. For a while, I wanted everybody to know how miserable I was, but I found that it didn’t really affect anyone but me….I think it is important to share honestly, because it could help someone else going through the same/similar situation.
Grace….
Jesus said, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these."
God willingly sent his son to die for our sins, so that we would have everlasting life. For that I am very thankful. I did not willingly give up my son, even if it was for my own good, and that fact has drastically changed my beliefs and reality. I thought that if I was good enough, worked hard, and was nice to people that good things would happen to me……Apparently I was wrong. That former belief allowed me to remain in control of my life.
I know for a fact that I did not do anything horrible enough for God to take Denton away for punishment. God does not work that way even if I had been a horrible person.
I am thankful that I don’t have to go the rest of my life thinking that I can control things…..that is a weight lifted off my shoulders……….
Grace is freely given….I don’t fully understand it, but I do know that it is something that you can’t earn.
God sent Denton to us for reasons that we may only know when we get to heaven and see him again.
I miss Denton every day. I will and have missed out on the joy that his life would have brought to ours. I have to deal with that loss everyday for the rest of mine…..But, I know that I can’t miss out on the other joys that are available on earth. I can still love Denton and celebrate his life, because of God’s grace.
Grease ….
I can hear my Dad telling me to “use a little elbow grease” when I was first learning to brush my first horse (Sunset Lucky Joe).
I learned about elbow grease from my Mom who taught me to do things right (specifically class projects)
I learned about tractor grease from my husband……
Greasy little boys….hopefully there will be more in my future……
Grease has a multitude of meanings in my life. I have learned to appreciate it. Sometimes grease brings welcomed situations and at other times it makes situations very slippery. Grease has helped me to understand that there are just some things that you cannot control. Grease represents, hard work, letting love flow the way it is most beneficial to my family and me, and letting go when things don’t go the way I had planned…..
Grief….
I wish I did not know this one…..but we all will know it in one way or another, sooner or later. My grief as a bereaved mother has redefined my life. It is not what I would have chosen. If I could change the outcome somehow I would in a heartbeat. If there was something that I could go back in time and change I would. However, I have never and will never regret having Denton for those eleven weeks on earth. I will always feel that having Denton with us was the most precious eleven weeks of my life. Obviously, we don’t see the beautiful tapestry that god is creating for us in heaven, and we will never fully understand why horrible tragedies happen on earth. We only see the backside of the picture and become confused by the things that we don’t have answers to. Don’t think that as I write this I have figured out the “whys”, I am still searching……But I have to believe that God is in control. I question God on a daily basis. I am still very angry that God let Denton die, but I am beginning to accept the fact that God sees the bigger picture. I am reminded of the Helen Keller quote…..
“We could never learn to be brave and patient if there were only joy in the world.”
Through my grief I have found that I have several choices. I can choose not to live, either literally or emotionally. Neither of which is an option….because of my precious Avery. I also have to make it for Denton. Option number three is to find some sort of happiness or satisfaction in each day. For a while, I wanted everybody to know how miserable I was, but I found that it didn’t really affect anyone but me….I think it is important to share honestly, because it could help someone else going through the same/similar situation.
Grace….
Jesus said, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these."
God willingly sent his son to die for our sins, so that we would have everlasting life. For that I am very thankful. I did not willingly give up my son, even if it was for my own good, and that fact has drastically changed my beliefs and reality. I thought that if I was good enough, worked hard, and was nice to people that good things would happen to me……Apparently I was wrong. That former belief allowed me to remain in control of my life.
I know for a fact that I did not do anything horrible enough for God to take Denton away for punishment. God does not work that way even if I had been a horrible person.
I am thankful that I don’t have to go the rest of my life thinking that I can control things…..that is a weight lifted off my shoulders……….
Grace is freely given….I don’t fully understand it, but I do know that it is something that you can’t earn.
God sent Denton to us for reasons that we may only know when we get to heaven and see him again.
I miss Denton every day. I will and have missed out on the joy that his life would have brought to ours. I have to deal with that loss everyday for the rest of mine…..But, I know that I can’t miss out on the other joys that are available on earth. I can still love Denton and celebrate his life, because of God’s grace.
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